trust me

i usually start of with a question. but tonight was a really good evening! expectations are hard from people!! i never felt so free!@ it's not as painful. i thought it was. life can be so technical, when you look at it at that sense, well......there must be no freedom in what it feels!!! AND HOW LUCKY WE ARE THAT WE ARE ALIVE, AND EXPERIENCE EVERY SINGLE MOMENT, YES MOMENT THAT COMES YOUR WAY. WHAT A RISK!? NEVER DID I EVER SAY MY LEFT BRAIN NEVER CALLED, you did as always, just had to be there. just have to know where judgement can be a sweet surrrender. and where i am now can be temporary in your eyes, but i'm ok to say that i'm a dreamer and that's where my comfort lies and that's where i can breathe....that's where I WANT MY DESTINY TO "lie". honestly, in that word, that last word, interpret it in your own way, i'll still support it.

thank you

thank you for the time, for listening to every single breath that comes out of me. you sensed it, i felt it. thank you for lying and going by this moment that was rare in anyone's eyes and if it was them they'd know it was meant to be. thanks for the deceit that recognizes the essence, the beauty of love. thank you for reminding me how moments can't be recreated. thank you for agreeing with me and taking it. thank you for letting me taste the fine cuisine of creation. thank you for accepting the consequences, the guilt, the purity of all this. thank you for admiring the stars. thank you for making me feel at home. thank you for appreciating me for me. thank you for everything.

home

habits die old. wise words linger through sleepless nights, up like morning trying not to miss any given moment as it use to be, as she use to be. playing it in her head, rewinding hoping she didn't miss a beat..........as the story goes.

Spontaneity

Temporary, it might be but why not enjoy it. These connections, the past connecting to the future and so forth. To busy to think way ahead. There are many in this world to love, to thank, to hurt. It's so great to be reminded by it and seeing so differently. So unsure at times and it's alright to feel that way. To stress about something that's been carried around. Angry at times, YES, IT'S OK TO BE. To feel it in your senses, to share it with someone, anyone, random.....To make them smile. Feel that the timing is good as any time of day. To succeed, to be patient. To be right and wrong, two words that clash, the good and evil, ahhhh the differences. That line from that movie, "if I could die now, I'd be happy." everyday is a moment, everyday are questions and every question, every second of that question there is an answer.