Sometimes it shocks me. When I feel like it's going my way and I like what I see, things just pop out and change. It's part of life I know. I'm just not that person who looks at "the big picture." My head is too small. Kinda like the character from beetlejuice, the guy with a small head. It's a lonely feeling when you don't have a sense of direction. You can hear your conscience talk to you while you're sleeping, but really I have no clue. Play the game they say. Everything seems to be a drill. I'm kinda upset.